happy and sad

donno why blogger doesnt allow me to upload pictures!? nvm. screw the pics. this 2 days ive been up and down. as in my mood. my emotion. few days ago i got emo over some personal thing. then.. on tat day after work. i went to look for facial product in a mall. while looking for it by myself. the salesgirl came forward and assit me. the way to explain and test the products on my hand. as in she rub it on my hand. the feeling is very weird. then in the end i quite like the set of facial product so i decided to buy it. then the other sales gals came forward and talk to social wif me. say the sales gal like me la. wat do i think bout her la. ask me damn a lot of question. in the end they even took down my facebook and hp number. scary lol. was quite shy at tat time. or should say shock. but in my heart im actually quite happy when i think back.then yesterday. they ajak me for lunch and tongsui at night. tongsui is dessert for ur infomation.then at night they called me for a chat after tongsui. its a 4 way conversation chatting. cool man yet its confusing coz u are listening to multi ppl talking. but its kinda fun la lol. they even ask me again tat i got feel towards to salesgal who fall in love wif me. i answered.. no.. no feel :) its not tat she is not pretty. she's not tat bad. but juz tat. when u talk bout feel. it wont come straight away. i miss the feeling of love and being loved.. seriously..tats it.. not gonna explain further details on yesterday anymore :)

was kinda happy actually even in the beginning of today. until juz now. when im taking train back wif ah man. one of my collegues la.. he told me a lot of stuff. coz today's my first day in french kitchen. and he suggestted me some suggestion on wat should i do and stuff. then today. my kitchen's cook A accidentely over cooked the lamb chop. then he called me to eat it lor better then wasting it. so i was like okay.. but i was busy doing some work there. so after i finished my part of work. i went to take the lamb and eat lor. who knows its actually another lamb. he got shocked and according to ah man. he was actually pissed off one lorh.. but he did not show it out. he took the over cooked lamb to another place and put the lamb tat gonna serve on the same spot. and i didnt realised it. its all misunderstanding. im sure u all are wondering why he got pissed but did not show it out to me. normally. the chefs wont be good to the trainees. out of 10 chef i believe 10 of them also like tat one. but to my loyal readers who keep urself update bout me through my blog. remember i posted up a post about my interview? i went interview wif my dad and not to the HR department but straight away in the GM office wif the GM of hotel nikko? and i wasnt even worried tat i wont get employed coz i knew i am gonna be success coz of my dad and the GM's relationship. and ah man told me in the train juz now tat the GM actually talked to my hotel's executive chef bout me. say tat im his bla bla bla's son la. must take good care of me la. watever i want. try their best to fullfill my needs la. then the executive chef told all the chefs in the kitchen in the meeting when im not there i guess. tats why i always got this very weird feeling tat im being treated in a different way. like ppl are very kind to me. this is the reason why i said i quite like the enviroment coz the ppl are friendly are stuff. no wonder the chefs there always cook food for me to eat. purposely cooked extra juz to let me try and eat. lobster.. fish..beef. everything!!

the story behind this has finally revealed. the ppl treated me so good and look after me so much is actually because of the GM's word. i feel quite bad for the lamp chop's case of today. ah chung doesnt even dare to be angry at me even he is. i feel very bad for this lor. :( :( isnt i should be happy? but for some reason i donno why i felt so headache wif wat i did today. wat happened to me?!

but he's ok wif me edi la now. after we cleaned up the kitchen. we went to the locker and change and crap and laugh. after tat we walked to the bus and train station on the same way. smoked and talked. we're fine now. but no matter wat..i still feel bad..right here...right now.. :(